Inside the Realm of Insomniac Dreams

unreal

2005-12-02T22:03:00.000-05:00

So my everyday ranting and raving - well, I love it - and I guess I am SOOOO lucky that it is usually about stupid stuff. Well, not stupid, but stuff that could be considered trivial to probably most. it's not like I lost someone very close to me to death. THATS real.

geez. I really need to start counting my blessings and try to see the positive in it all rather than ranting and raving about the negative. I am sure I will carry on the same as before, but geez. The losses some people encounter. I can't touch them. and I don't want to. Ever.

BABS TO THE RESCUE!!!

2005-11-30T21:55:00.000-05:00

I finally tried your instructions... and I got you added as a link!!!

YAY! I'm so very proud... haha

Thank you!!!

ok! I got it for now!

2005-11-30T09:08:00.000-05:00

haha - when I opened up blogger this morning, I opened up my actual blog in a diff window, saving the initial screen for later when I Was ready to blog away. And it worked. haha. I don't see why it wouldn't have, but I am happy bout it none the less!

for you fellow previous blogsters, this is kinda funny. When the BLOG spoke to me- at first thru a comment then thru email - it was regarding where I had gotten info from for my previous comment. My comment was along the lines of not being able to have blogs elsewhere for fear of being banned - which Blogster of course would never do. Anyways, I got my info from BLOG itself, who had said that other sites ban you. So Blog emailed me several times, I cut and pasted the comment from blog, figuring that would put the issue at rest, but no. Blog is still confused. This paragraph is prolly confusing, I am well aware -haha - but talkin to blog is like talkin to a wall. So I thought I would share.

I hope all y'all are having a fabulous Wednesday. I know I am - but I am stupid happy cuz of the new boy being cool thus far. I'm sure this too will pass, but hey, I will take what I can get!

MC = CUTIE!

December

2005-11-29T16:54:00.000-05:00

I can't believe it is December already. I don't want to fight people in the malls again. I am not ready for the traffic and pushy people. I have no money for nice gifts - I guess in my case it will always be the thought that counts? haha I hope people really mean that cuz thats all I got!

I swear time goes by faster and faster the older I become. Not a fan. This will not do!

I want to go back a few years and freeze. :)

er vs ster

2005-11-29T12:26:00.000-05:00

I thought this would be gettin easier by now. Perhaps I really am mentally challenged. ????

I can never figure out how to post a new blog, sometimes the pencil is missing! I hafta sit down with this business this weekend and have a nice long talk about where everything is. SPILL IT! haha the secret needs to be told... I can find people thru my comments. I guess that shall suffice for now!

anyways. hope all is well for everyone and I hope it's a happy tuesday for all y'all!

hmmmm

2005-11-28T19:42:00.000-05:00

Is there a way to create a new post while looking at your own blog?I still have no idea how to link people from my site... I go to other people's sites, mostly apos, and look for people there... haha And it's amusing b/c to get to my own post from hers I hafta remember who I am to her... hahaha there are a couple K - ee's :)

The initial reason for this post essentially is that I went to the grocery store tonight, and my total came to $21.07. That number stands for a song in a jukebox that my friend ALWAYS played -"You can't always get what you want" I was so happy with that for some reason! Little things in life... little things!

oh my

2005-11-28T19:07:00.000-05:00

It just took me about ten minutes to find the create post button... haha SPECIAL! and I futzed around looking for the link section, again, I got nowhere! drats...

I am just updating here there and everywhere that I am in a much better mood. I can't wait to fall into my bed, but other than that, yay! happy girl!

I heard from MC - the new possibility guy on the forefront... we'll see if I crash and burn yet again or what happens... So far he seems pretty dayum cool and he follows thru with what he says, so thats a bonus. I'm always a fan of guys who do what they say they will do... I was supposed to meet up with him yesterday to watch the packers, but he broke himself rock climbing... he was going to take several aspirin and come out still, but I was like no, I will find a replacement - heal yourself! haha Dedication tho, I like it... :)

Hope all is well with everyone!!!

mundane

2005-11-28T12:39:00.000-05:00

I sat near toupe guy again on the metro. so strange - there are so many possibilities for seating and cars and times and blah blah blah - the odds of seeing someone with frequency are slim. Why can't it be a bonified hottie that this happens with? oh well.

I am liking the fact that I get comments on both blogs... thats kinda cool, although it's also kinda hard to keep up with! People are too scattered. It sux.

I am down today, dunno why, but I am hoping it passes. soon.

grrrr

2005-11-27T22:14:00.000-05:00

that was just some guy with her pic & stuff...

prolly loves her...

i got confused...

my bad....

this just in.... from Blogster's new "EDITOR"

2005-11-27T22:11:00.000-05:00

Why So Grumpy, Blogsters?
I really had no idea what I was getting myself into when I signed up here at Blogster.com the other day. No idea there had been big changes in layout and ownership and all of this hoopla.Seriously, people. Is it necessary to pounce on the new "editor"? I plan to do just the opposite and at this time would like to ask Ms. Conlan to post more pictures of herself. For a writer, she's definitely no eye-sore. She's also from Cleveland...and everyone knows:CLEVELAND ROCKS!Let me also say that I've spent time at Blogger.com and that place is not nearly as user friendly as one might think. In addition, I also checked out Bloglines.com this weekend and it's nowhere near easy to use. I balked immediately and thankfully found this place. In closing I just want to say that I look forward to spending a ton of time here. I hope to contribute some worthwhile posts/articles/whatever that help entertain the masses based on a number of things including music and online entertainment, especially internet radio.

dunno

2005-11-27T21:16:00.000-05:00

so I got ditched by the original person to hang out with for the packers... MC I call him. There was potential, til he broke himself rock climbing. and now there is no response from him. must be nursing that arm.

I found another, and hell, the packers lost... love Brett and Gado tho... love them :) so pal & I were talkin... she was like I Thought you never wanted to get married??? um... I thought, essentially, we all want to find someone... yes, my picker is broken, I perpetually pick the freaks and bad guys, but I, too, still want to find my someone, and or get married... that floored me. She is happy with a husband and a child at the moment. YAY her! she is HAPPY! I am happy for her! Seriously! so then she said that my expectations are too high... so I was like were they with JF? no! no one liked him to begin with... ok... then if I pick loser jackasses, how the hell are my expectations to high???

dongetit. perhaps it's not meant for me to get. then it all works out in the end. clarification?

Blogster no longer exists to me!

2005-11-27T14:22:00.000-05:00

I can't get on blogster. at all. VERY STRANGE I must say... at least it's not just me though... I have recruited several people to try to get on and they can't either... I dunno

Last night SB came over, that was fun... High Fidelity was a pretty good movie that made me REALLY sad. I can't imagine ANY guy I have been with pining for me like that, and it just makes me feel like I am unworthy of any sort of relationship... can that be true??? I hope not. But at the moment, I'm afraid it might be...

Sad times

2005-11-27T01:54:00.000-05:00

It really sucks that people are dropping like flies from blogster. So many people who had encouraging words to offer are gone. I hate it. I feel like someone is ripping apart a support system, and I truly feel the loss. Not happy.

I actually had a dream - this is bizarre but stay with me - that a bunch of blogster people lived in the same house and we were under attack and all fighting back... STRANGE, I know, but my brain is seriously bothered by all of this, obviously, if it's incorporating itself into my dreams... perhaps I have grown too attached to the people at blogster, but dayum, blogging on there throughout the breakup with JF - they SERIOUSLY helped me through that, and now what? Censors are shutting people down and what not... Makes me REALLY REALLY sad. I wish they knew the impact they were making. it's not fun, at all. Karma will get em tho, in that I trust.

Later tonight...

I watched High Fidelity with SB tonight. Will anyone EVER feel that way about me??? Only psychos. Why? Hate it. I think I am relationship unworthy or something. I TRIED with JF. I really did. I gave it more than I have given anything in the past, with my all, seriously. I wanted it to work. More than anything before in my life. And it didn’t. What makes a relationship work? Seriously. It seems like there is nothing I MYSELF can do to help it. It will either happen or it won’t, and in my case, it’s just not going to. Makes me so sad.

Then there was Kraymer, watching as SB left with her 2 babies in tow. Kraymer sat on the sidewalk right in front of where her car had been, like a good boy, as if saying HEY I AM BEING GOOD! COME BACK! PLEASE! Poor little guy. Kept looking off in the distance hoping for the best. I tried to tell him that they weren’t coming back, but he wouldn’t believe me. Gawd I am so with him. It’s an awful feeling and I hate it.

Fucked up world. We need people, yet they can also bring about the most pain ever. They can help, and they can totally hinder. Fucked up.

no thanks given to blogster....

2005-11-25T12:22:00.000-05:00

Well I am going to give this a shot since the new owners at blogster suck.... I hope this site will work for me so I Can leave the other one behind! :)

I hope everyone had a GREAT thanksgiving!